That I may look back on it all and see God's Glory, not my own...

Ok, so, it's been a few months since my last major "heart attack." I looked back to one blog I wrote back in January. So I thought maybe it might be a good idea to keep track of these attacks somewhere, just in case. So, for the record...

 

June 30th, 2008 at approx. 3 pm I started having chest pains, loss of feeling in left arm, shortness of breath. Went home early because pain was unbearable. Had a glass of white wine and a bayer. That seemed to help. I think stress from work the previous day could have  attributed to this since I haven't touched a Mountain Dew or an iced coffee in two days.

Today, July 1st, 2008 - Took a bayer with breakfast. Chest and left arm are sore but pain is manageable. Theology debate with JW's will attribute for some stress today. Will have another glass of white wine with pizza and salad tonight.

 

Is that techinical enough for ya?

 

NDosch

To live is Christ, to die is gain!

Phillipians 1:21

Wow, been super busy this week and last. Just a quick update.

 

Meeting with JW's again next week, probably for the last time. Last week's study/debate was not pretty on their part. Tempers are begining to manifest I think because they are annoyied that we haven't converted yet, hehe.

 

Preparing for a bible study at my house, this Sunday afternoon, the topic none other than "Defending the Faith at the Door." I feel the Lord has given Bekah and I a heart for this and thus we feel the need of a minisity calling; a minisitry that will inform us on the beliefs/herseries of the JW's, how the Watchtower has corrupted the scriptures and how do we combat them with the truth of Christ. Must be in much prayer that God's Word will open to us.

 

Out of the blue, I picked up a manga. I not really a big fan of japanese mangas but this one I had to have. "Manga Messiah"  The Bible drawn up anime style!!! I freaked!!! The best of both worlds! Anime and Christ!!! Who would have thought? Bekah, you have to see this!

 

Our last LARP was expectionally fun (yes, I LARP and?). I'm thinking about starting another mindsay account or online jounral for my character, Morganna. In keeping with her character she does carry a journal. idk, we'll see.

 

Counting down to vacation! Key West or Bust! Two weeks and counting! I can't wait.

 

That's all for now. I have a big point power I should be working on for Sunday but the fingers were itching to type this stuff off my chest. Excited, nervous, concerned, prayerful, anxious! All of it I give to God ::Sigh:: and I feel better now.

 

NDosch

To live is Christ, to die is gain!

Phillipians 1:21

Two sins that will definately land you a hot seat in hell: Unbelief and Believing/teaching heresy.

 

A co-worker of mine commented today "Man, I hate Jehovah's Witnesses. Their so annoying" and in the same conversation "I'm not really a religious person. I don't really believe in all that."

 

So, I mused, if the JW's are going to hell for believing and teaching hersery and you are going to hell for unbelief, then it looks like your next door hell-neighbor and torture-mate could be a JW.

 

I don't know what's worse: spending an eternity in hell, period(!) or spending an eternity in hell with JWs?

 

I know it's mean and I'll probably get hazed for this one but, I thought it was funny, in a sad and pathetic way. How far has this world strayed from truth, and lo, we are condemned already.

 

NDosch

To live is Christ, to die is gain!

Phillipians 1:21

 

Prayers - Bekah, witnessing to JW's, Alicia, Wayne, Jack, Jenn

We've all see the proverbial man standing on the proverbial street corner holding up that all too familiar sign: "The End is Near!!!" I'd say he's pretty close to the truth.

 

Fires in Florida.

Hurricanes in New Orleans.

Tornadoes in Georgia.

Floods in Mississippi.

Sharks on every coast.

Earthquakes in China.

Monsoons in Malamar.

Tsuanmis in the Pacific.

 

I can't list them all. The frequency of late is nearly as frightening as the death toll. It's a sign.

 

WAKE UP PEOPLE!!! How much longer are you going to ignore the truth?

 

Mother Nature isn't angry or sick. Mother Nature is dead!

 

God lives, reigns, and rules on His Throne in Heaven and He does what He pleases! Yes I'm saying that God sends the rain AND the lighting AND the death and destruction. He causes all things to happen, to what end, I don't know expect maybe to say "I AM!" and to remind us that we are at His Mercy!

 

"You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are the beginning of birth pains." ~Jesus in Matthew 24:6-8

 

If the end is near, and these are the signs of it, we shouldn't be thinking of tomorrow but today! If I die today or the Lord returns, what will the be judgement on my soul? Heaven or Hell?

 

This world groans with the labors and consequences of sin. This world is reveling and dieing in its sin. And I am sick of living alongside it. Lord, send the Rapture! I'm ready to go home.

 

Ndosch

To live is Christ, to die is gain!

Phillipians 1:21

 

Prayer - Bekah and myself, our studies in the Word, preparing for the Jehovah's Witnesses, Rose and Nikki, Wayne, Jack, Alicia, Dave

I miss the Old-man. He's upset that I won't talk to him but what I can say to him that he'll listen. I've told him everything I know and everything he needs. He asked for godly advice and then makes his bed with the ungodly. That's a slap in the face, so yes, I'm upset. Still...

 

It hurts to see him anymore. You pour your heart and soul into something, like witnessing to the lost, and then (as my sister bekah says) something just goes horribly wrong and you think that all your hard work was in vain. Of course deep down I know that the Word of God does not return void and that it's all ulitmately in God's good time but still...it hurts. I guess that means I'm doing something right.

 

Sharing the Word of God isn't as easy as it sounds. He can't begin to understand what it's like spending nights on my face in tears, in supplication and prayer, crying out to my God for his salvation. It has taken it's toll on me these past few months, phsycially and emotionally (oh, what my poor hubbie has to put up with). God has both blessed and cursed me with a big heart, metaphorically speaking.

 

And that hearts breaks everytime I see the Old-man. And when I think about her. If only for the short time I knew her, I hope something got through. I pray for both of them still with an inhuman strenght that is not my own.

 

Ndosch

To live is Christ, to die is gain!

Phillipians 1:21

My husband and I were working in the flower beds the other day when a truck pulled up at the neighbors house across the street. A business advertisement was printed on the side of the truck:

 

"Paperless Divorce! Quick and Painless! Only $149!!!"

 

If I was anyone else, I would have thought "wow, that's a pretty good deal!" But I have not forgotten, like the rest of the world, what God teaches us from His word.

 

"I hate divorce," says the LORD God of Israel, "and I hate a man's covering himself with violence as well as with his garment," says the LORD Almighty.   ~Malachi 2:16

 

Simple enough to understand. Yet how prevelant it is in today's society where the divorce rate is creeping over 50% mark. Do they not consider the vows they made "to death do us part" and "what God has joined together let no man seperate." I doubt they consider such words as more than just apart of the ritual. But to me, they were much more. My husband and I both knew that. Marriage is not to be entered into lightly for God promises that it is not all lovey-dovey. It is the testing that either makes us stronger or breaks us. "Those who perserve to the end will be saved." Alas, that is another tangent.

 

Just so happened, I've been reading through Ezekiel. In chaper 16, Israel, God's choosen people, is described as a woman who God took for his bride but she went off and commited adultery with all her neighbors. We are not much different from Israel. America has turned from it's God to unfaithfulness and liberalism. The one condition the Bible gives us to divorce is if a spouse is unfaithful and commits adultery.

 

The thought hit me then...what if God divorced us, his children?

 

We would be cast out, no longer heirs of the promise, no longer covered by the blood of Christ. Our only certainty would be the promise of eternity in hell and it would be rightly deserved, yes.

 

All have turned away, they have together become worthless; 

there is no one who does good, not even one.  ~ Romans 3:12

 

But praise God and His promise to David. Praise God that in His Mercy He does not change His mind or go back on His word. He is the God of the Covenant, faithful still even while we chase after this sin and that sin, He is faithful to forgive and take us back.

 

Let us then consider a new perspective on divorce. Of course, I'm talking to the brethen, those who have already been elected and saved by grace and seek to obey the Lord we love. There are no limits to our unfaithfulness, nor to God's mercy, however, for fear of discipline, let us not test either.

 

Ndosch

To live is Christ, to die is gain!

Phillipians 1:21

i hate needles i hate needles i hate needles my arm hurts!
i hate needles i hate needles she missed the vein!
i hate needles i hate needles...what about kids...?

...WE'RE ADOPTING BECAUSE i hate needles i hate needles i hate needles!

::shakes fist at insurance lady:: ow my arm hurts!

I hate needles! (I'm such a coward) I hate needles!

::rocks back and forth:: i hate needles...

Ndosch