The latest rumor - "I use this blog to bash my co-workers."

...I don’t know where to begin this one. How about, I expected this alot sooner.

It's been months since I gave a certain someone a link to this blog, always keeping in mind the spread of and exposure to the Gospel that permeates my entries. I must thank this person (and you know who you are) for inadvertently helping me in my endeavor and advertising my blog, even if it was in the form of gossip and you waited till now to tell everyone. If people are offended, it is because I tell it like the Bible says; these are not my words but the truth. Look it up yourself if you want. Point one.

Second Point- this is a blog, journal, diary, memoir, call it what you will. One major function of a blog is simply a place where one can "vent" their frustrations. I am not immune to them. Now, a concept that will be foreign to most people... Scripture talks about two kinds of anger: righteous and unrighteous. Anger and hatred against another person (or God Himself) is a sin (Luke 14:26, 1 John 2:11, 1John 4:20, James 1:20). Anger against sin, my own and those of others of which Satan blinds them to, is righteous anger that leads one to repentance and prayer (Lamentations 1:8) . This is what I "vent." This is a source of great frustration for myself. True Christians can relate - we must live and function in a world ruled by sin and the devil and at the end of the day no amount of washing can get rid of that feeling. Cursing, lusting, perverted jokes, drinking, smoking, drug abusing, pre-martial sex, fornication, abortion, lies, gossip, slander, homosexuality, false religion, witchcraft, hatred, envy, murder, need I go on....All these our society indulges and promotes, blind to the truth of God and His judgments on those who practice them. This is the source of my frustration. This is what drives me to my knees nightly to pray for them, which leads me to my next point.

Is is so wrong to pray for someone? To pray that God will open their eyes and heart to see the world and their ways for what they are - sins against a Holy God? In the bodies of my blogs I never mentions names (for obvious reasons) but God know of whom I speak for He knows the thoughts and hearts of all men. Those I mention in the prayers at the end of my blogs are those that Lord has put on my heart. They are what keep me up at night, at all hours of the night, praying to God on their behalf for whatever reasons; sickness, family issues, guidance, hopes and aspirations, etc. Later I can look back and give Glory to God when I see a prayer answered. Is that so wrong, I ask again, to pray for someone I care about? Apparently it is to some and in recent days I have felt the hostility as a result of all this. They hate me because I cared...?

"Rescue those being led away to death; hold back those staggering toward slaughter." ~Proverbs 24:11

I have, in conclusion, come to a sad part in my Christian walk. Discouraged, yes, but not defeated. I want to say I have taken up Jonah's perspective. He turned his back on Nineveh and said "Lord they do not deserve your mercy and grace." They have mocked your name, your words, and your servants. But ...was I once one of them? Yes. I, too, was once lost and did not know, did not care about truth and judgment, sin and damnation. But now I do and that doesn't make me better than them, no. They cannot say I am judgmental. I want to help. I see them making the same mistakes I did before I found Christ and the Lord has both blessed and cursed me with a big heart. It only comes natural to me to want to reach out and help them, warn them, show them, tell them, pray for them. Is that so wrong!?!?!

It is to be expected that they want none of me because "men love the darkness rather than the light" (John 3:19).

"A perverse man stirs up dissension, and a gossip separates close friends". ~Proverbs 16:28

Because of recent days of gossip, cold shoulders, and silent treatments, the Lord has taken them off my heart. If they do not want me to pray for them, then I won't. But they are always in His Hands whether they know it or not, believe it or not, and therefore they are still not without hope.

"The love of God is greater far

Than tongue or pen can ever tell

It goes beyond the highest star

And reaches to the lowest hell." ~MercyMe

Ndosch

To live is Christ, to die is gain!

Philippians 1:21

Prayers - the crew who hate me, richard's mom, new career endeavor, God's will and work of salvation